Have you ever gone through a period of your life that makes you question everything? Perhaps you decide it's time to try something new, something you've always dreamed of but never pursued out of fear?

Well, I'm about to tel you to DO IT.

Not convinced yet?

I invite you to watch me doing just that, and then see how you feel.

This past year has been a hard one. Not only has it been the great pause that has affected (and is still affecting) all of us, but also life has done its predictable thing of bringing me experiences I didn't see coming.

We lost my beloved father very suddenly on June 8th, 2020. This created a cascade of change that included an immediate relocation to my childhood home and the closing of my commercial space, massage practice, and retail business. Trailing behind those are the trauma of saying goodbye to our 14-year-old dog and this past Winter, the very sudden illness and loss of my father-in-law.

This isn't a story about my personal trauma though, but how I'm working to overcome them.

The secret for me is two simple words, my friends:

Creative Expression.

Over the past year, I very slowly reached a critical point where it became clear that the only way I could begin to move beyond merely surviving and towards something that resembled thriving was to start to do things differently. I'll explain in more words later but it became clear that over the years I had learned to squash my creative expression for the sake of things that I just didn't believe in anymore.

When your life dismantles itself, you're forced to throw your old beliefs into the fire as well.

Well, I threw myself into that fire and it turns out, that is the beginning of deep transformation.

This isn't the final product but a starting point. An experiment.

My experiment was performing a one-woman zoom show for my friends, family, and fans. Boy, am I so glad I stop fear from stopping me. From the response I've gotten so far, it sounds like I'm not the only one.

Watch Now|Here :: The SHOW now and let me know what was your favorite part in the comments below.

Tip jar is still open! If you feel like you got more out of this show than what you gave by spending your time with me, send me a tip via Venmo @nyssa-hanger. Tips help me know that this work is valuable and encourage me to continue to make shows even better.

Now that you've seen what I've done (so far) in response to saying a big "Screw You!" to fear and self-judgement, I invite you to consider what is the thing that you've always wanted to do that you've held yourself back from?

Tell me in the comments so I can cheer you on. I'm getting pretty decent at calling bullshit to the things that hold us back and I'm happy to be a support.

Especially when it comes to being creative.

You've got it, my friend, we've just got to do a little housekeeping, that's all.

Mark your calendars for the next Now|Here Show for May 1 at 7pm ET.

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