Be Curious

I have this dry erase board that says, "Be Curious." I wrote it on there years ago and it had become one of those things in the background of my life.

Something that I had once thought was worthy enough to write on a board, became something that I ignored.

I recently moved this board to another place in my home and suddenly I became curious about why and how "Be Curious" came to be on the board in the first place.

Then I remembered: it was after listening to a podcast with Annie Grace and Rob Bell. This was during the time that I knew I wanted to change my relationship to alcohol but I didn't really know how to begin. Their talk left me with the idea of just being curious about how drinking makes you feel, what you like about it, what you don't like, all the aspects of it. I needed this advice at the time because I was oscillating between ignoring all those things and judging myself deeply for not being able to stop something that some part of me wanted to.

This idea of being curious did leave some imprint on my brain. Slowly over the next year or so, I became a little more curious about alcohol and got to a point where I was also curious to see what living for a month without alcohol would be like.

I became curious in my own time, starting with brief moments of curiosity and growing to longer spans of time.

Now I'm 4 months into seeing what it's like to be alcohol (and also cannabis) -free. Someday I might be curious to see what these substances are like again. Who knows?

Allowing my curiosity to remove the judgement made the biggest difference for me in my healing journey.

Curiosity has also opened up much more for me in my life. At the beginning of this year, I was also curious to see what would come out of publishing a blog everyday. When I heard about a Thai massage training happening near me, I was curious about what that would be like. Last month, I was curious to see what new poems I could write. I'm trying to live each day with that curiosity, being open to the magical dream world around me.

What are you curious about? How can you be more curious in your own life right now?